it's · the · little · things · that · save · us

OH NO,it has been too long since I've exploited my mental diarrhea. lets see, where to start...

trip home with Nick Courtney:

so Micah and I went home to Morristown TN, the home of Nick Courtney and many other colorful folk. The first night we got there we went to his high school's speech showcase where we were warmly welcomed by a parent of one of the performers that happened to know Nick.

woman: hey Nick
Nick: hey!
woman: I see you got your boys with you, boys in the hood.

BOYS IN THE HOOD?!?!?!? Oh, and yes, she was FOR REAL. I should have grabbed her purse and told her "hit the floor bitch," personally I think that would have been funny.
I actually had my birthday in Morristown. It was a very chilled and relaxed birthday. Nick didn't have his car (which wasn't his fault), so we didn't get to really do much other than chill at the house. I got to meet Nicks really sweet girlfriend, Julia. She was a treat.

speech prom:

I had a lot of fun. I really liked hanging out with people I usually don't have the opportunity to. Riding in the car with Ashley Litsey, Ben O, and Saeed Jones was RIDICULOUS! They were insane/hilarious, but at times, it got a little too intense, and I had to be the emo kid, which meant putting on my headphones & hoodie.

in the future:

I'll be working a outdoors resident camp from May 27th until July 30th. I don't think there's electricity in the cabins/tents, so I'll be away from the internet for quite some times in a few days. Have a safe summer everybody.

So this weekend:

Friday:
- a bunch of us went to PLAY, the gay night club I mentioned a while ago. It was a treat being in such good company. The first time I went it was only three of us, but this time it was like 10 people. I had SO much fun and Saeed's hair will always make me giggle when he dances.

OH OH....mustn't forget the best part of Friday. SO...JD and I decided to go on a ride; we've learned to really enjoy the countryside of Kentucky (something we don't have in metropolitan Texas), and we stumbled on this creek that I had been to once before. The creek had a 'no swimming' sign, for there were none of the alterations that usually make creeks safe to swim in. We decided, after noticing a nice flowing current and a way to get in/get out, we would go tubing down this creek. We went to wal-mart, bought tubes, hiked down a steep incline, and floated the creek. I felt like a Mark Twain novel (not Huckleberry Finn, I'm not ANYBODY'S JIM)...but navigating through the falling tress and islands of grass made me feel like there was no civilization around; I just didn't know places like this still exist.

SATURDAY:
- The Kentucky Derby. NOW...I've never seen the derby before, so I thought it would be like a football game (it would last a large portion of the day); WRONG! People throw parties to watch a bunch of horses go around a track ONE TIME! When it was over...I felt cheated. I don't even like sports, but I really set myself up to watch these horses do amazing things. I can't imagine what they would do with 3 hours of time, but for some reason I didn't really think that far ahead. That night Maggie and rented movies from the library (which, by the way, they have GREAT movies) and stayed up until 2am watching them. It made me really miss Carol Channing, Mary Tyler Moore, and Julie Andrews (one of the movies we watched was 'Thoroughly Modern Millie').

CRUSH UPDATE:

CRUSH = NO MORE. I just figured I like the hype of a crush more than actually having the crush (does that make sense?). Plus, I don't want that person misinterpreting a crush for more than it is. In conclusion...it's just not worth it, and I think going home trumps a crush, so right now I have a crush on going on for the summer. Most of you found out, for those who didn't...meh. oh well.

Before I give another hint towards my crush, I was thinking last night: sometimes people just need to keep it real with each other more often (I am actually always thinking that, but everyone always starts off journal entries with "the other day I came to this conclusion," as if the thought never passed their minds before then). Seriously though, I think that we get awkwardness confused with truth (source: Dr. Lydia Nelson). For example (when keep it real goes wrong - Corn Style):

REAL: "I'm lactose and tolerant, so I'm going to have to blow it up after I eat this pint of ice cream"

AWKWARD: "awkward"

REAL: "feeling froggy awkward? JUMP!"

This is a silly example, but none the less when people keep it real on a more serious level, the same outcome happens. I vote for less awkwardness and more real, agreed?

SO...ONTO THE CRUSH. My friend Mandy Moore decided to help me write something for my crush:

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

too bad sony records exploited our inner most thoughts and made it into a pop song with airy vocals.

clue # 2

-this person is closely related to OR on the speech team.

hint: You think you know, but you have no idea (source:the beggining credits of real world).

okay....so I decided it's time for a confession. I had to think for a while whether or not I should mention this, but I came to the conclusion that if I don't say it, then It'll just be pinned up inside. I have a crush on someone. I'm going to leave hints at the end of each entry that will lead to the mystery person. P.S- wouldn't it be cool if this person liked me back? Yeah right...then it'd be an episode of 7th heaven where everything works out because the family has god on their side; what about me GOD?

clue #1

-they live in Bowling Green

now...a lot of people may assume a certain person because of recent events, but TRY AGAIN!

IN OTHER NEWS...why isn't school over already? I'm actually really clueless as to what my summer will hold. I should get it together, and start being more adult like. You know, sometimes I really hate growing up so fast. I remember when I wanted to be a freshman in high school, then a senior in high school, then a freshman in college...it's gone by TOO FAST....now I want it to slow down.

so I saw 'Akeelah and the Bee' today with some people, and it was one of the most inspiring movies I've ever seen. Sometimes it's good to watch a movie that doesn't have a huge subplot, big named cast, and has some deep meaning that's suppose to make you question why you exists; girl just wanted to spell some words. If anyone is looking for a feel good type of movie, then the movie comes highly recommended.
On to other news...Club Kid shindig was last night. It was fun.

p.s- I got in a weird funk tonight...anyone else felt that?

so, I have good news. I finally went to my first gay club. yay! Okay...so besides ALL of the stereotypes being true, I had an amazingly great time. DISCLAMOUR: this may OR may not be racist....but little gay Latino men have SO MUCH ENERGY & SO MUCH TIGHT CLOTHING; I am thoroughly shocked with the combination of their energy and tight clothing, when they dance their bodies don't strike flames, because heaven knows there is enough friction going on. Beside fiery Hispanics and half naked 'pass their prime' men, everything was A-OKAY, and even those that combination was quite amusing. The part that took the cake was the drag show. THE BOOBS LOOK SO REAL, it's unbelievable! The sideburns on the side of their thighs gave it away that Tapping Tanya could never be a real girl, well....I guess she could, but Tapping Tanya would have some terrifying testerone. Everyone who went was a bunch of fun, and I'm glad they were able to realize it wasn't the type of club we went to, it was the group of friends they were with. It's up to you to make your own fun YO! I can understand that's just not some people's thing, so to each its own.

So, back from Wisconsin/NFA, and I must say it was the bees knees! GAH, what a relaxed tournament. All I could think about as the tournament ended, was the seniors leaving and my freshman year ending SO fast. I remember the first time I met Ryan Howell and how he danced like a sesame street character spasming out on coke, or Courtney Wright and that stupid fart noise he makes with his hand.....SIGH, I'll never understood all all the insane personalities we had meshing to make so a tight bond.
In other good NFA news, JD and I finaled our duo. I felt the first time all year, JD and I actually loved each other when we performed. We might have gotten 6th, and it doesn't matter, because during that performance I felt I was floating the entire time (granted I had about 3 hours sleep and I was still lingering on the effects of sleep aid). The round was the most magical round of speech I've ever seen. You could feel the energy beaming from every performance.
Yay for having tons of school work to make-up, but in the end it was so worth it. I'm excited to continue my love affair with college speech for the next 3 years. It's odd to think I almost chose not to do it in college.

EVERYONE IS GETTING SICK! first it started off with Chris Brasfield, and then it's been hopping from person to person. Joel Smith farted really loud, he ALSO has some sort of sickness, I wonder if you can get strep from inhaling someones fart fumes? I hope everyone gets better before NFA. Word on the street is that steroid shots (the shot they give you in the bum) works like a charm.
It's odd...I feel really chilled lately. It's like after painting your room and for two days you feel almost like you're floating, well at least that happened when I painted my room two years ago. Who knew when a room has poor circulation you're suppose to open the windows and NOT close the door while you're painting; all I'm saying is whoever came up with that hasn't been on a two day buzz from sears paint- don't knock until you've tried it (think about how many people are dead or Terry Schiavo-ed because of that advice).
I have to go live with my dad this summer. I'm trying to find the positive things about this, and the more think the more depressed I become. I know I'm being all Laguna Beach Kentucky about this, but my dad is all dad-ish. makes sense? no? I shall explain...

CORN'S DAD 101
Syllabus

.going out on weekends is irresponsible
.going to church every Wednesday and Saturday IS responsible
.going out with friends excessively is immature
.staying home and watching movies with the family on weekends is mature and cost efficient.

*for more instructions please ask when you're social and mental health are completely ruined.

That's a long way away from now. I just need to think about NFA and finish school up with a good gpa.

p.s- thanks to Ry Ry Howellface for making me a livej